I still remember the the days of when I used to be just a toddler. Those were the days. When I was in stroller, calling for mama in a cradle in the middle of the night, laying on the couch watching Barney VHS tapes.

To be honest, remembering all of that kind of brings me to tears. Makes me cry a little knowing that it's been 12 years since I stopped being a toddler, but it still feels like yesterday that I was laying on the couch in the morning, laying while waiting for mama to bring me a baby bottle filled with milk with some chocolate powder (maybe protein).

Time flies by that fast huh?

Makes me cry a bit from knowing that I probably won't be able to have those days again, where mama take cares of you under her wing. Makes me feel wishing for the old days, but I got to move on.

I got a good life ahead of me. But to be honest, the thing that was able to calm me down from crying is that I have someone to love. Ty Shillenghs, thinking of him was able to calm me down.

He's my first love, he's my only true love, he's my only goal to move on from the past, work in the present and see bright for the future.

He might be the only thing why I'm not screaming my head off in an insane asylum, knowing that everything will come to an end.

I have a future ahead with him. I just love him so much. I don't want to love anyone else other than him. I just want him, only him...

Almost feel emotional from typing this. Sorry about the rant everyone. I just felt like I needed to get it out of my chest since yesterday.

Have a good day everyone.

-Steve Civillian Admin